Meaningless Memories

I remember driving down a nearly empty road with you on a summer weekend heading toward a thrift.

I remember jamming to musical interests we had in common and laughing to Weird Al songs while the next adventure awaited our arrival.

I remember the wedding we were guests at. At the reception I would keep forgetting that we were only guests and not the bride and groom. But now I know for a fact that we were guests.

I remember the seasonably cold trip to California. Or was it Seattle?

I remember watching the Food Network in bed as we dozed off after a long day. We were able to do that because we never went to bed hungry.

I remember when you took me to see my favorite sports team. You weren't even a fan of sports.

I remember the book you made me, painted over glued pages that held relevant-to-us song lyrics along with a mixtape. You told me that it symbolized a proposal if I wanted it to be. Good thing I never said "yes."

I remember when I was your outlet, your pillow to scream into. I hated seeing you upset, but I lived to make you feel better. It made me happy.

I remember when I planned a semi-secret date night for us both. You knew when, but didn't know where. When I arrived at your place, you were just finishing getting ready for a night out. You looked beautiful. To think I actually felt bad that the secret was making you a meal I started preparing a day in advance. Our last supper. I learned how to cook for you.

I remember our birthdays, because they were either surprises or simply when we were surrounded by great friends.

I remember when you forced me to watch that show about a man who time travels in a blue box.

I remember the zoo. The exotic birds landed on us in the bird cage, and we laughed at how comfortable they were while we had food for them. And how distant they became when we had nothing to offer.

I remember the drunken nights with friends. The loud laughter. The long conversations.

I remember when you told me to remember the happy times and then walked away.

What happy times?

- PatInTheHat